Endless Love.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

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昨天你又哭了，是累了吗？

Maybe not going to post the story le. I dunno how long will i cry when writing each and single words of our memories. But silly promise you,i won't forget. It will always be in our heart. I know you tired nowadays. same here. No matter is mentally or physically,we are tired. Hope you are doing well. don't torture yourself tat way. The hurt you bring for silly is not repay liddat T_T by tiring yourself,you will only hurt me more. Get it idiot? every night was thinking. is idiot tired? does his foot hurt? he need silly massage? did he eat well? have enough rest? How you want silly to be happy for those worries every single day? Yesterday night,silly feel happiness again :) Thank you idiot. Those tears is our love. 请不要再那么辛苦了，我会痛。也不要再哭泣，我会哭。Let fate decide our ending bah. 我会等，等待着我们完美的结局。或许现在我们不得已要分开，但如果这是真爱，我们始终不会被分开。silly is lost now. sometimes she told herself to smile and move on bravely,but sometimes tears just flow whenever she think of you. 可是能怎么办呢？T_T 我们还能爱吗？

Love is in the air
4:23 AM

Saturday, October 16, 2010

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Shall make my blog alive once again!

Hmmm...there've been lots and lots of thing happening all these while. Well everything seems to change so quickly before i could adapt to it. He had left. But i promise him tat i'll write our story out,i'm going write it here. I know i'm silly. Idiot i'll wait for you to be back. I love you...Seriously,i really dunno wat i'm doing now. Everything just seems so complicated. Your friends,my friends,their friends,our parents. There's really too much for me to take. Will it be a full stop or just a comma? Now my life is full of uncertain. I wont break my promise. I'll live on. live my life to the fullest. Without you,silly will still hang on. It's time for me to learn to grow up, learn to be independent,learn to live alone. Are you happy now? have you get the happiness you want? 和你相爱，是傻瓜这辈子最幸福的事。Now there's only memories for silly to live with le. 傻瓜已尽了全力去爱你。最后始终无法留下你的心，我们的l感情。There are still promises between us,就算我们现在没法再相爱了，我还是会用我的一切去守护那些承诺。You are the one,the only one who know what i'm thinking,feeling. Although i dunno whether our heart is still link,but i do feel everything you feel. 你选择了她，傻瓜只能成全你。虽然还会哭，还会心痛，但知道你幸福了，傻瓜也笑了。What you gave to silly,she will never forget. For tat one day,she will live on no matter what. Silly once hate you. Hate idiot giving us up. Hate idiot abandoned everything between us. 然后就这样狠心的离傻瓜而去。But you did lgave me happiness. Did gave me beautiful memories. Did make me smile. 那天，你哭了。永远都保持坚强脸孔的白痴，对傻瓜哭了。你的痛，傻瓜在那瞬间都感应到了。I told myself it's time to let you go. 选择放开你，不是不爱你了。甚至我比谁都还爱你。Because i really cant bear to see your tears. To see you hurt. To see you suffer. Thus,i let go of you. 还记得吗？傻瓜对白痴说过，i rather i am the one who is hurt,我也要守护你，不让你受到伤害。One day..........will come. I love you.

Story will be written in the next post...Bye.

Love is in the air
11:07 PM

Saturday, August 14, 2010

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Hello ppl!!!

Just came from yog performance :) yeah,finally finished le. although it's quite tired but it is indeed a great experience eh. Hahas being random, I HATE BITCHES! lol! i really dunno why there are so many bitches in this world,it's kinda pathetic isn't it. Can't they just get a life and do what they should do and stop making ppl unhappy -.-! F*** lar! Hais shouldn't let them affect my mood anw,they should just go bang the wall and die :) ermm,well well let's talk abt my studies! HengJingHui got her first detention in her life for not completing the ss essay...hais was quite sad and frustrated,i should manage my time well de. But sometimes i just lack of some motivation,school works are accumulating,till i dunno where to start le. maybe i should start to face them now instead keep pushing away by give damm lots of excuses. some ppl say i change alot,did i? I started to think so too :( This world is just too fake and disgusting for ppl to show its true self. Everybody is just putting on a mask,and cover their disgusting character. I dun even noe when to trust or when not to trust alr. that's the reason why ppl are putting on mask,maybe it's just the way of protecting themselves. I really dunno when i can find myself back. When you know something is bad,but u still choose to persude yourself "no,it's perfect" what will you feel? I'm doing it all these while. When will i choose to face the reality? Or my silly-ness will really make tat bad to a perfect. buuu....shall end here lar hahas.

Will post if jinghui got some random things to share or depend on her mood bah... Bleah :P

ByeBye =)

Love is in the air
8:45 AM

Friday, August 6, 2010

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Buuu...hello ppl! ^^

Wellwell,nowadays didnt post frequently le. Many many things happen,and all are unlucky ones! damm pekcek de can?! how i wish i can end this life and choose another one )= most suay de is i lost my phone! i only use for like 4months? hais heartpain *tears* and some other relationship stuffs. I noe i may be too much saying this thing but i really feel tat single may be better. You no need always think abt this and tat,no need care abt this and tat. maybe this can make u feel more happy(= But i know i should treasure for wat i have now,including him. Wahwah is right! Dun always think of how long we can last,at least must tell myself i've done my best and once having it (= dardar i know you have done alot for me,thank you. I know i should learn to trust you but just tat i need time kay. I can see the effort and changes you make. I know i'm really silly doing stuffs to make you sad or angry but you should know why i always liddat. No matter wat I love YOU kay? Just two more days will be our one year le. see,although we always quarrel or met wif alot of problems tat almost make us be apart, we still come thus far. I'm really sorry tat i always say break wif you. Forgive this timid me. I choose to give up than facing the fact tat you may leave me one day. I'm scared tat i lose you,tat's why i never have the courage to hold on to you...

Love is in the air
1:49 AM

Thursday, July 15, 2010

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A sad girl named Jinghui...

Today feel super empty de. when i reach the school,i actually told myself this "o i reached school alr arg?" i think i'm metally broke down. I just hope tat one day i don't need to cry myself to sleep,just a single day will do T_T Hate myself for being so weak,i promise him i'll be strong de:( but i failed. Always cry cry cry,HengJingHui stop being an attention seeker! cry got use meh,he is gone.pls wake up! It's all over you silly T_T When nobody pei you go school,you can go yourself! when nobody buy drink for you,you can buy yourself! When nobody help you carry books.you can take it yourself! When nobody help you wipe your tears,pls just dun cry! When will you learn to be independent? I know it's time for me to grow up,there is no him for me to rely on le. He is gone,try to accept it will you? Ytd i cried myself to sleep again. But i had a wonderful dream,i dream tat we are tgt again. In tat dream i'm a girl filled with happiness,i smile:)...How i hope tat's will be true but i know i'm staying in reality. Trying not to think of him,when i saw him,i'll told myself this guy will only appear in my dream so i'm dreaming...Jinghui has lost her laughing power,she has lost her heart and mind somewhere. A place she cannot go near to,a place where is so perfect but it just seems so far from her. She know she can'stay at the place anymore. Cos he dun need her anymore...

Love is in the air
2:06 AM

Saturday, May 22, 2010

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Hello ppl :D

I know i've been emoing for period of time...Thank ppl who pei me through all these esp qiwen, anna, audrey and (anna's apple+qiwen's lionXD)....haha and never forget wingyan's kiss AWWW....although promise to forget everthing and start afresh but i can feel the hurt and pain sometimes. I dunno wat i've done to make thing turn out this way. I hope i can hate but i jus can't because i really love...I really hope tat this incident won't come back to us again and make each so heart-broken...as for tat gal,i not angry wif you. Dun feel guilty or sad,it's not all your fault. I know everyone doesn't feel good. I also hope tat you can find a guy you truly love and treasure you too. After all these maybe we noe more clearly what we wan...Really hope tat everybody can be happy. Forgive and Forget <3....

Love is in the air
3:43 AM

Monday, May 3, 2010

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Heart shattered into pieces,anybody can glue it back?

It really hurt alot, i promise you that. I noe tat sorry cant change to forgive anymore.
9th month isn't tat short as you can think. To put everything down isn't tat easy tat you can think of. Stop loving you isn't possible... I noe you are hurt too,i'm really sorry for tat. If i could choose to start this relationship again,i will,even i knew the ending of the story. Really hope tat time can solve everything. I promise to gve you time de. Dun gve up becos i didn't. <3

We once promise each other for eternity.
Do you rmb tat?
We said tat we will last no matter wat.
Do you rmb tat?
We swear tat we love each other.
Do you rmb tat?
Time can make everything to be past,but it cant erase our memories.
The first date we had at the beach...
(I hide your slipper in the sand and it lost,i promise to find it and i did:])
Everytime you company me home...
(i lay on ur shoulder on bus,when we reach,u will touch my face and say:"baby wake up")
Every morning when we go to sch tgt...
(you wil help me carry books,i ask are they heavy? you will smile and say:"nope")
Everytime b4 I go to malaysia for long holidays...
(you will wipe my tears and say:"silly gal dun cry,i'll miss you")
Everytime when we quarrel...
(you wil always let me win,i ask you why and you say:"becos i love you mah")
When my parents oppose us being tgt...
(we cry on phone and you say:"we'll hang on no matter wat")
When i make you angry...
(i'll write letter to you to say sorry,you never fail to forgive me after tat:])
When we are feeling low...
(we will try our best to make each other smile:])

Although you are really a wooden block,but you never fail to show your love and care to me.You say you will change to become sweeter but i told you no ned becos i love you for who you are. I really enjoy and treasure the time being wif you. Maybe our love doesn't have the perfect ending we wan but i assure you tat my love for you is never fake. At the start of this relationship i promise to gve you true love,have you feel them? I noe you are feeling confuse aand lost now. I said b4 i'll respect you decision:) Idiot i love you...

Love is in the air
3:44 AM